Friday, 6 August 2010

Long time no post

Neglected this a bit, haven't I?

Two years ago, I was walking both literally and figuratively speaking on eggshells, after Doreen had her mastectomy. She was in pain, exhausted physically, mentally and emotionally, and despite all the best efforts I could make to support her nothing I did seemed to be the right thing. It's taken me a long time to come to a realisation about those times, and that realisation is this.

I did some stupid things, and in trying to put my own fears and tiredness to one side I inadvertantly made things much worse. I'm sorry I did, but now the thing to do is to let go of any further resentments and anger about those things. Neither of us were coping very well, and we took it out on each other a bit. I need to ask forgiveness for that, and move on.

It's not been helped by a lot of uncertainty over my job over the last seven months, and a working relationship with a manager that could have been better. Both resolved now - again, time to move on

Things are getting better, but it is a long haul. We have other worries now of course - less than two weeks to Alastair's AS results, and Stuart starts secondary school in just four weeks. Hard to believe, as well, but it's one month to our Twentieth wedding anniversary - I need to sort out something special for that. Wonder what the best thing to do would be?

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